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I’m having a hard time finding words for all of the feeling–I caught a glimpse of it this last week.  

I felt safe and secure, deeply safe and secure, yet all the indicators in the physical world would not convince you of my security.IMG_0146

I live week to week.    I have no savings account and I am deeper in debt than I care to convey.

Now, knowing that, you’d think I walk around in fear and doubt and worry all the time.  You’d think I cut up my credit cards and cut myself off from everything I want.

Wrong!

I enjoy life and try to live with total ease and joy–regardless of my financial situation.  Life is more than money–life is energy!

More important than the status of my financial books is the FEELING of freedom.  Freedom comes from feeling not from having.  

The soul wants to experience life it isn’t interested in accomplishments!

Yes, while there are times I yearn for a “real” job that pulls in “real” money, for the most part I am happy to be living this life I’m living.  I enjoy freedom and yes, even multiple streams of income.  Just when I think there is no more money to pay the bills, I get another check from an unexpected job and it always seems to arrive at the opportune time.

At the depth of this feeling, is pure knowing that everything will always be okay.  It always is.  Everything always works out for me.IMG_0492

 

As Donya Ture’ writes in her book, Free Falling Into Your Higher Self, “The logic behind your free fall into a new belief system is because you realize that there is no wordily explanation for life and therefore the impossible, the mystical or even the magical must actually be possible.”

Now, I’m clear that some will say I’m just an idiot and that I should be planning for my retirement and I should be planning to get out of debt and I should be planning to be wealthy.   Planning, planning, planning!

I say, “screw your plans.”  Life is truly about living  NOW.  Having said that,  it is true, I am simply soothing myself and the situation I am in rather than focusing on what’s wrong with it.  I have nothing against planning for the future.  I am happy though.

All of the warnings I receive feels like a fear based way of being.  I don’t want to feed the fear.

I want to bask in the feelings of enoughness, fullness, all that is– wellness!

So, that’s what I will do.  It will be challenging because of the world I live in.  Every way I turn, there will be more INFORMATION to remind me how irresponsible I’m being.  My work, no, my JOY will be to transcend those thought forms, those limiting beliefs and just BE.  I AM WAKING UP from the reality that I have created in the past.  Glimpses of awakening are soooooooo sweet!

Life is so full.  It’s full of a vastness that, once experienced, is irresistible and intoxicating.  I want to spend more time there!IMG_1167

The sweetest twist of all of this are the experiences that show up.  The more I anchor myself in this knowing, the more opportunities arise–they already have!  This is a vibrational Universe, when you raise your vibration by looking for beauty, finding ways to appreciate and have gratitude for the wonders around you, those feelings will draw similar experiences to you.  And who knows, maybe in the form of money!  Money IS energy and it’s always circulating in my midst.

No, I don’t chase money any longer.  Instead I chase the present moment where everything thrives if we will allow it.

 

Money is NOT the source of happiness.  Freedom does not come from having money, BUT having money may just come from feeling FREEDOM!

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I BELIEVE.  I TRUST.  I LET GO. 

 

 

Learning A New Body Language

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If your body could learn a new language that could supersede everything you’ve ever believed about health and all the limits we set up around it, would you want to know about it?

What if you had an energetic intelligence within you that would allow you to transcend all of your physical ailments?  Would you be interested in learning it?

What if I told you that your body already knows it, you just need to tap into it to re-learn it.IMG_0508

Greg Jeter is a licensed NSA practitioner.  Trained first as a Chiropractor, then seeing the magic in this work that can be best described as “energy work”, focuses his entire practice on energy, with an occasional physical adjustment.

Greg is a facilitator, a bridge if you will, to help your body tap into the field of self healing.  “It’s all about finding the tension and the open areas and merging them into an energy that moves and flows into a feeling of ease and perfect health that is connected to all that is.”gregAglow

Dr Oz said on a recent Oprah episode, “As we get better at understanding how little we know about the body, we begin to realize that the next big frontier is energy medicine.”

WE ARE ENERGY!

If that sounds  “other wordly”– I can assure you,  that’s how it feels to receive it.

When I received my first session, I  didn’t want it to end.  I felt a rhythm and a vibration moving through me that is ultimately indescribable.

Some of the comments by long time practice members who receive regular work could make you a bit curious about the seeming magic of this work:

“Loving myself absolutely as I have never loved myself before–felt the omnipotence that babies feel”

“Felt like I had a heart orgasm–had the experience of what it must feel like to be a fish swimming in water”

“absolute joy”

“felt my spine had perfect posture”

“felt as if I was holding the love of the world & the suffering of the world all at the same time”

“felt the VOID of awareness–words really can’t describe what happens but it is like a deep meditative place that connects me to a world that is beyond the material, conscious realm”

You may feel results from the very first session but you will want to continue to regular sessions, since the tension is fuel for transformation.  Once your body learns this language, it will want to speak it and experience it at regular intervals!

Enjoy the process–YOU ARE WORTHY!

To experience the future of medicine, contact BodyMind Studio at: (510) 856-0036

Located in the heart of Hayward, CA,  the office also offers Massage Therapy and Hypnotherapy.  Don’t think a 30 minute drive to experience this work is too far, you are lucky you live that close–I’m about 6 hours away!

Lifted Up

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I was out walking the dogs and was deep inside my head with lots of chatter. Sometimes the chatter is really blissful and empowering and other times the chatter is somewhat dark and disempowering.

I’m aware of the chatter while it’s happening and most of the time it’s easy to turn it down or off, but for some reason today I was a bit stuck in there.

As we walked by a young man and his little dog, we greeted each other (the dogs greet one another and I greet the doggy too). This little dog was so cute and sweet and easy with being approached rather abruptly by Sebastian and Josephine.

“Blossom” was her name and her essence just pulled me out of my head and into the present moment. I felt my energetic vibration lift and the feeling was palpable! Not only did her energy lift mine, but mine was very uplifting to the young man walking her as well.

The cool thing–about dogs–they have the ability to transform your experience and your energy! I would not have wanted my lower, chattery vibration to affect the young man I came in contact with. Instead, all the energy was lifted up. Thank you dogs!

If you don’t have your own dog, I suggest going out and borrowing someone else’s dog. Or, go to a doggy park and watch the joy abounding! Dogs deliver the bliss in boat loads!!!

Vibrating Vicariously

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“Oh, my sister isn’t wealthy–she just lives vicariously through the wealthy people around her.”  Those were the words my sister used to describe me and my life.  When she recited them to me, I must admit I was a bit halted both in thought and words!  I wasn’t sure if I should be offended or not–I decided to let it go.

Yes, I have been spending time in multi million dollar lifestyles for over 20 years now. 

Upon moving away from my humble beginnings in Detroit, I magically wound up in Malibu.  I started training, massaging, and house-sitting for all kinds of people in Malibu–celebrities, moms, dads, producers, attorneys, musicians, actors, etc.  Not all of their lifestyles were multi million dollar, but they seemed to have way more than I  ever imagined myself having.

Today, as I led a group of hikers along the stretch of Westward beach that is lined with magnificent homes, I described one of the settings of a weekly massage client I had for about a year.

She lived with that beach as her back yard.  The balcony where I massaged her was so glorious.  You couldn’t see the sand or the parking lot below, you could only see the blue sky and ocean.  All you could smell was the ocean breeze–it was so breathtaking and breathgiving–all at once.

People always ask me, “aren’t you envious and resentful when you’re in their space?”

Honestly, no–I almost felt as if I were part owner of the space.  Heck, I got to be there every week and enjoy the space.  Yes, there were times I wished I could spend more time–just chillin and relaxing, but for the most part, I was in bliss.

The first place I lived in Malibu was on a private horse ranch.

The owners weren’t millionaires, but they had a property worth millions with 7 horses that made my childhood dreams come true.  The experiences I was able to live out there on that ranch were nothing short of miraculous.

My landlord saw the thrill and desire I had to learn how to ride so she graciously took me to horse clinics and trainings–one of them with the incomparable Ray Hunt!  I created a bond between one of the horses that was so warm and wonderful, words cannot describe the love I felt for that horse.  The most thrilling feeling was the love the horse felt for me–that was a warm and palpable force!

Yes, I have trained and massaged some of the biggest names in Hollywood.

Two of my neighbors are A-list actors who can play any role they want because they are who they are.  I am surrounded by abundance and wealth everywhere I go.  I take care of homes that are so magnificent and others that are humble in comparison.

Am I living vicariously through them?  I’m not sure.

What I am noticing, though, is that the more time I spend lingering around this lifestyle, the more it becomes reachable, believable, possible.

I am vibrating vicariously!  Why not right?  I am in it and around it.   By being in it, it becomes more a part of my vibration which helps me to maintain that vibration, which then must manifest in my life.

I have a friend who grew up in a very wealthy family.  She will always vibrate with the abundant energy she has, that’s just what she knows.  She knows nothing of lack or not enough and, fortunately, she will never know that because she has been trained to EXPECT wealth to be hers endlessly.

 

No, I boldly say to you, I have no doubt that this is all training for me.  I have been training my vibration for all these years and it simply must mean I am getting closer to the vibration of full and effortless abundance.  As I know, everything is energy.

We are all vibrating a frequency out into our environment.

The more time I spend with this wealth and abundance surrounding me, the more I will vibrate that signal and I won’t be able to help but match it!
When we raise our vibrations, we raise our ability to connect with the universe…

 

 

In case you haven’t noticed by now, I am a believer in vibration and the law of attraction.  

I take my time and enjoy my life, I’m not a huge go-getter but when I’m inspired to go for something, I go for it  because I’m listening to my inner guidance–that powerful place of presence.

 I’m not in a hurry and being in a hurry is why most people will never experience their greatest desires because they’ve got far too much resistance built up.

This is an amazing clip from an Abraham Workshop–describes vibration well.

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Ahhh awareness…the more aware I become, the more I see Law of Attraction is always working. There really is no escaping it.

One of my favorite affirmations… “I do everything with the power of FOCUS, the Universe will not give me a partial payment”.

Sometimes, without even asking, the things we focus on show up, effortlessly, into our lives. Here are two examples… I had a personal training client at The Malibu Gym on Tuesday.

On my way out the door, I stopped to look at all the latest local publications…magazines/newspapers. It’s something I always do.

On this particular day, I zoned in on the cover of the LA Sports & Fitness magazine. There was a man who looked familiar…I wondered if he was someone I knew or maybe a celebrity.blueonthecover

For some reason I really focused in on his face, then his body, then back to his face. How did I know him, or did I? I stood there for a good 2 or 3 minutes, with a soft smile on my face, studying the cover.   Finally, I grabbed the magazine, went to my car and headed home.

Always on my way home, I stop at The Vitamin Barn where I get my organic green juice for the day.  As I walked through the parking lot I noticed a couple of guys getting out of a classic Jeep.  It  looked really cool and FUN so I asked what year it was and we kept talking while we walked into The Vitamin barn together.

They asked if I was a runner. They are big time marathon runners and they shared a social networking website with me that they had recently started.  They said, “check it out, we’ll go out on a training run together and if you don’t want to run, you can just sit on the beach and watch us run by.”

We introduced ourselves, exchanged names and went on our way.

Later when I went home, I went to www.foreverrunner.com and realized I just didn’t want to go through another social networking web-site set up, I looked for Blue’s last name and looked him up on Facebook. 

He was there– I noticed a familiar photo–it was the photo I had seen on the cover of that magazine a few hours earlier. 

There he was!  I thought that was pretty cool…. I had just looked at his picture and met him 10 minutes later. Okay, that was cool, now brace yourself…

On Friday, as I left the gym, I stopped by the door again to see what was new.  This time I zoned in on The Malibu Times Magazine. 

On the cover was Reggie Miller (the famous retired basketball player of The Indiana Pacers). I really zoned in on it and stared for more than a minute.  His eyes were engaging and it was as if he was there in the room. I had had some interaction with him in the past, casual conversations about health and fitness so he wasn’t really a stranger to me.   I looked a little longer–really zoning in–he has the most amazing green eyes and they are hard to ignore.

Again, I grabbed a copy, threw it in my car and went on my way.  Of course,  I stopped at The Vitamin Barn for my organic green juice.

As I walked in, I noticed ReggieMiller walking in before me…everyone greeted him as if he were a regular.  At this point, though, I had forgotten  I just studied his picture on the cover of the magazine.

He obviously went there regularly…Carlos (behind the counter) lined up all his wellness shots for him without him saying a word.  Some of us around the bar exchanged some small talk and I was on my way.

As I walked out the door, it dawned on me, that for two days in a row now, I had zoned in on the cover photo and manifested that person at The Vitamin Barn.  How’s that for the Law of Attraction?

In the movie, The Secret, Joe Vitale says… “Thoughts are sending out that magnetic signal that is drawing the parallel back to you.”

It’s not like I said I wanted to meet them, but my vibration really tuned into their photos with an intense focus and feeling, then poof, there they were!

I love how it works time and time again.  It usually sneaks up from the side or behind and reminds you it is at work and most of the time, we don’t even see it or recognize it. 

It just works so effortlessly that most of the time we  take it for granted and don’t even see it.  I challenge you to BE AWARE and when you least expect it, it will reveal its magnificence!    Until then…enjoy the process!

Magnetic Energy

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Some people have an energetic force that draws life to them.   It doesn’t matter what they look like, their energy trumps everything.  If it’s a high vibrating energy, it feels good and you want to be around it!

Reach for the best feeling thought you can find and you will raise your energetic vibration higher

I recently attended a Landmark Education class in Los Angeles.   On the second day of class, I entered the room, scanned the space, then walked to the  far right of the room to take my seat. The leader encouraged us to sit in a  different spot from the previous day.  I sat next to a man in the 4th row on the right.   I could only see his back so I wasn’t attracted to him in any physical way–there were lots of open seats all around, but I sat right next to him.

He turned to me and said, “Hi Tara”.   Not only did I not know who I was sitting next to at the time, I didn’t even recognize him after I looked at him. The only reason I knew it was him was by reading his name tag and reciting his name which is a really fun name  to say!

He had changed a lot after all these years…he had gained some weight and had a bit of gray in his hair.  I had dated him briefly many many years ago.  As we caught up with each others lives over dinner, it was clear to me, he had the same fiery energy he had all those years ago.

And even though I didn’t really SEE a physical attraction, I was feeling an attraction to his energy.  I love energy!

He later admitted that when he was sitting there in the morning, he looked over to the door and saw me walk in. He had seen me the day before because I stood up and spoke in the front of the room.

He quietly said to himself, “please come sit next to me, please come sit next to me”–and I did!quiet_fluidity_18dn962-18dn965

Everything is ENERGY! For me, it is so much more important than how a person looks. That’s why I am baffled when I hear  most of my friends list their dealbreakers for finding the man of their dreams–“he has to be taller than 5’9″, he can’t have any children, he needs to be able to support me.”   Really?  Those restrictions could be blocking you from finding the partner of your wildest dreams.  For me, anyway, I stay open to whatever it looks like and reach for those higher energetic qualities..

Energy is amazing. You can deny it or embrace it. I embrace it and look forward to sharing it.  Reach for the best feeling thought you can find and you will raise your energetic vibration higher.  Feel ya later!

Magical Manifestations!

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I finally watched the movie, “Milk”.  A few years late, but really glad I saw it.  I’ve been talking about it to several friends, discussing how crazy it is that that phase in history could go down.   Sometimes my sense of empathy is so intense that it’s hard for me to stop feeling about something that really moves me. Anyway, this movie and Sean Penn’s performance was so great and so inspiring!  I have talked about it for days.the-times-of-harvey-milk-1984_xvx_155434

Without going into the whole review of the movie (which I did on my initial posting of this topic), it had such an affect on me.

I wanted to discuss it, ponder it, question it.  Sean Penn did such a great job and I just couldn’t shake the movie out of my mind. 

To think there was such a conditional hatred toward homosexuals during those years just baffles my mind.  Anyway, watch the movie if you haven’t seen it.  I swear I’ve been talking about it for weeks and going on and on about the movie and Sean Penn (I’m not a typical fan).

So–yesterday, as I was standing at the front desk of the Malibu Gym…malibugymsteamroomwho walks in the door?  Sean Penn!

He had that familiar intense facial expression and there was no question, Sean Penn was in the house–standing in front of me!SeanPenn

Yes, it’s true, we do get a lot of celebrities at the gym but in my 20 years there, I had never seen Sean Penn.  Manifestations!!!

This is a powerful assurance of our worthiness–just more proof from the Universe that the people and things we are thinking and feeling about come into our reality. 

Yes, some would say the fact that he showed up is pure coincidence, I like to think it was my strong vibration that pulled him into my sphere.

On the same day, I experienced yet another magical manifestation.  On Sunday, a few days before this day,  I had gone to an art gallery opening and met an amazingly creative young man.  He takes items that have been thrown out–mostly furniture and books.  He creates and re-purposes them into various pieces–dressers, stools, chests, chairs, etc. 

They are so charming and gorgeous (www.onebooktree.com).  He is such a talented artist!

As I was admiring the items, I thought of my former client and friend, Rachel Ashwell.

Rachel is the creator of Shabby Chic.

She does similar things with all of her items, she goes to flea markets and gets shabby items and perks them up –not totally rebuilding them, but it is similar.

She has created a multi-million dollar business doing this.

The more time I spent with Devin, admiring his work, the more I pondered the possibility of introducing this young artist’s work to her, perhaps she could carry some of their items in her local Santa Monica Storefront.  It would be a great boost to their beginnings.

It has been about 3 years since Rachel and I have spoken or seen each other, but on this magical day before heading up the long windy canyon for my mountain bike ride, I stopped to get gas at the 76 station.shabbychicRachelashwell

Who was next to me at the pump?  Rachel Ashwell.  Manifestions!!!

Manifestations are proof from the Universe that you are worthy–that what you’ve been thinking and feeling about really can come into your physical reality.  Simply, manifestations are indications.   I had been thinking and feeling about Rachel Ashwell and Sean Penn a whole lot that week and they showed up.  These are messages for us to pay attention to what we think and feel about,  we just might get it!!!

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