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“I am this trail.  I am these trees.  I am this rain. I am this breeze”.

These are the words I would repeat in my mind in an effort to take the pain in my knee away!

I was at about mile 2 of the Tough Topanga 10K when my Tensor Fasciae Latae seized up and made my knee throb in pain.  This is a hard,  tendinous muscle and when it’s tight, the  knee tracks incorrectly.

I knew that it was simply a tight tendon and I could calm it down later–I was determined to finish the race without walking, so I kept running through it.

I decided, with all I’ve learned about the power of the mind,  I would put this to the test!BackboneBuldge

As a hiking guide, I tell this tip to many people who are having a hard time getting up the hill.  The mind chatter can sometimes take you down and,  I’ve discovered, there is a way up and around  all that discouraging chatter!

Instead of focusing on the pain, I turned my attention to the present moment and began my mental mantras to keep me there.

I AM THIS TRAIL

I AM THESE TREES

I AM THIS RAIN

I AM THIS BREEZE

I finished the run with ease.  Sure, I still had some pain but I didn’t feel it while I was running.

Fast forward about 2 months later and 20 miles up the coastline, I’m training a client at the Malibu Gym when one of the members asks, “hey Tara, did you run the Tough Topanga 10K back in May?”

YES I DID.Tough 10K.jpg

He continued, “I was the person at the finish line clicking all the times.  Of all the people I saw cross that finish line, you looked absolutely EUPHORIC–truly at EASE.”Trust

Wow, how about that!

Even though I was in pain, I was able to take myself to my only point of power and be fully present.  I crossed the finish line looking euphoric and serene because I was in a vortex of energy in its most powerful form–the present moment.

There is something so amazing when you live in the present moment.  Magic and miracles happen there, I’m going to be hanging out HERE more often!

 

 

 

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Envy in Malibu

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I have the privilege and honor of caring for people’s homes and animals while they are away.  One of the questions people always ask me is:

“Do you ever become jealous or envious when  caring for other people’s homes?Do you go into the comparison mode and wish you had more of this wealth and abundance.”

Am I envious? Absolutely not! Sure, there are times my mind wanders into that lower energy place of lack and feelings of unworthiness, but my work is to guide it back to the light.

Right now I feel like I’m on the set of  “Under The Tuscan Sun.”  I feel so fortunate to be in this space.  I admire the beauty of it all and I enjoy the responsibility while I’m here but I also enjoy the freedom of my regular life when I’m at home.JacksonsCastle

This will sound bazaar to most, but I never really wanted the responsibility of owning my own home.  I wanted to feel free to go anywhere in the world without being tied down by the physical responsibility of a house.  What can I say, I was young and that’s how I felt.  Now, that’s exactly where I’m at in my life today.

I live in an “out of the ordinary” environment and one of my living spaces resembles a log cabin.  Interestingly, a log cabin is also what I once dreamed of living in.IMG_0244

 Today, though, I’m here in Malibu– enjoying this blissful space and reaping the rewards within right now.  The rewards really are within! And the rewards really are right now!

 

The question really isn’t “what can I get”, the question is “what can I let”–what can I let into my soul that will bring me joy and peace and beauty and ease.  I don’t have to GET anything to feel those feelings.

Feelings transport me into  a high-flying place where bliss is all I see and hear and feel.  Beautiful chimes mixed in with the sound of real raw wind whipping through the palm trees and a fountain dripping below.  I sit and watch and feel the beauty within and there is something so simple about that. All power is in the present moment and I am anchored in the here and now.Blessings

When all is said and done, I remember my favorite quote from Ralph Waldo Emerson: “Envy is ignorance and imitation is suicide.”

Angels Among Us

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I just watched an episode of  “The Best of Oprah”  all about angels in our midst.

It was from the 90’s and I’m so glad I saw it.  So often, over the years I thought that perhaps I had just imagined an incident that happened in my younger years.

Anyway, today as I watched and listened to the stories recounted, I realize that I, too, was  lifted by one of my many angels or maybe even by the hand of God.  Yes, until just now, I’ve never  really acknowledged that I have angels.  I just always thought it sounded weird.

There are angels all around us…if we but see.DescriptionOfAngels

In 1979 I had an incident happen that I’ve never spoken about.  I knew that it happened but it was so bizarre that I never shared it with anyone!

I was 19– I went to a wedding with a young man I was dating.  He was this strong, muscular, gorgeous, italian man.  He had the most magical name to say– Gino Salvatore Finazzo!  He always had women coming onto him while I stood there watching.

He was very smooth and sweet and would just slither away when necessary.  On this particular night, Gino was surrounded by a few women on the other side of the room while I was alone at the table.  There was a young man at the wedding paying some attention to me.  We stepped outside and smoked a joint together.  What I didn’t know at the time, was that this young man was Gino’s arch rival–a real ladies man himself.

So there I was, thinking, “gosh, why shouldn’t I talk to this guy, Gino’s off talking with some women on the other side of the room and I’m by myself.”

Well– that was the end of that night!  He loaded me into the car and drove my ass home, he was infuriated!

We drove FAST down Southfield, with emotions hot and silent.  I kept trying to reason with him and help him see my side of the night.  He would not speak!

We came upon a car on the side of the road that was sticking out into the lane.

It happened so quickly that all I can say is our car actually went through the car on the side of the road.  There was no impact or effect, we had just passed through this car–like liquid gas.  Fluidity.

I saw it.  I felt it.quiet_fluidity_18dn962-18dn965

I’m not sure if Gino saw it and I would never know because he dropped me off and was out of my life forever.  He never spoke to me again.  He would have been the only witness to what happened.

For several years, as I’ve grown personally and become more aware of the amazing natural and supernatural world we live in,  I’m sure now that I encounter Angels frequently and I get connected to the ALL THAT IS on a regular basis.

Look, feel, get quiet–those are simple yet powerful keys to connecting into the other realms that are clearly NOT out of this world!

I Am A Mystic

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I am a mystic.  I never fully understood the meaning of the word until recently.  It always rang in my mind as something of magic–maybe even a little dark in its meaning.

I heard the Sufi teacher, Llewellyn Vaughn Lee,  define a mystic as: someone who wants to completely lose themselves in God until there is only that divine consciousness, being, oneness–no separation.  

I like that.

Or, the definition that suits me precisely at this time in my life is:  a person who perceives and comprehends divine mysteries.IMG_1167

Most people have a different idea of what a “mystic” is.  I know I did.  Simply hearing these definitions made me feel like I belonged to it and that felt great.

I Am A Mystic!

I perceive and comprehend so many mystical experiences  almost on a daily basis.  I yearn for them and when I don’t have one in a day, I remind myself to let go long enough for the next one to happen.

Yesterday,  as I waited at a light, I watched the people crossing the street.  A good-looking guy caught my eye but he had a snarly kind of frown on his face.

I told myself not to judge too quickly–he may be very spiritual and sweet.

Then, I heard Michael Beckwith’s voice in my mind, “see with the eye behind the eye, feel with the heart behind the heart…”

I realized my music wasn’t on the whole time I’d been in the car– I love my Michael Beckwith Transcendance CD (https://naturegirltara.wordpress.com/products-i-highly-recommend/)

As I looked down at my phone, the time said 11:11.  I turned on the power for the CD and the words that came out were, “see with the eye behind the eye, feel with the heart behind the heart.”

That is a mystical experience–magical, perfect timing!aglow at the gazebo

You may say, “that’s just a coincidence, and what’s the big deal.”    Because I am a mystic,  I claim it as a bright,  synchronistic event of today.  Magic and miracles abound!  When we can witness the smallest mysteries, bigger and more amazing mysteries are on the way!  Trust me, I have big stories that unfold synchronistically, but to share them all would be like reading a book!

This happened to me this morning.  I was dreaming, dreaming about my former husband.  I don’t remember any specifics just that his energy was in my dream–it felt very comforting.

All of a sudden, my Bose radio alarm (which I’ve never set and don’t even know how to set) started playing the song, “Lovesong” by The Cure…”I will always love you…however near or far, I will always love you.” (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=62Kwhe2Ng0w)

It was the perfect song to put music to how I was feeling.  Feeling that no matter how far apart we are now, I will always love him and I know the feeling is mutual.  There are no nasty, small-minded words between us.

Anyway, the way the dream and the music met was perfect.

That is a mystical experience.

I am a mystic.  I see and feel mysterious and magical manifestations that the Universe is conspiring on my behalf!

It’s fun noticing.

Love IS– My Sister Valorie!

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It really does seem true–the people we’ve known and loved the longest seem to be taken for granted the most!

Well, let me tell you about my sister Valorie!

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Our bond started early, she spoke for me.

I’m not sure when I did start talking but my mom had to have a real serious talk with Valorie because whenever someone asked me a question, Valorie always answered it.  “What’s your name?”  “Her name is Tara”.  “How old are you Tara?”  “She’s 3” ….Mom had to sit her down, get her attention and explain how important it was to let me start talking for myself.

Thanks to Valorie, I speak up  for myself and I’m good at it!

Valorie was always there for me.  Even though she is only 2 years older than me, she was the closest thing to mom that I had. ValandTaraFerrisWheel

Until she wasn’t….

As I got a bit older, maybe from the age of 10 to 15, Valorie became a bit of a bully to me (I suppose I was a bit of a brat too).  Not all the time, but a lot of the time, she was really rough on me.

She once rubbed dog poop in my face and mouth and sat on my head and pulled my hair til it felt like it had all been pulled out.  

If you see her wrist, there’s a big scar on it–she went to punch me (after I kicked her)  and I shut the door as she punched–right through the glass window.  Oh I thought she would kill me after that one!  There was blood everywhere, we had to go get her some stitches.  Drama–but this is what growing up with a sibling looks like, it’s not always love and light !  This is life at it’s best, really!

 I survived.

As the years rolled by, we grew up.  Valorie became a girlfriend to a couple of different guys–I still know their names and can still see their faces vividly.  They weren’t good enough for Valorie and her intuition guided her out of those places.  Not  long after,  she found the love of her life and she’s  been married to Glen for 35 years.   They have two lovely daughters who are off in the world and living and enjoying life.ValandGlenBLUE

Even though the closeness Valorie and I  shared as children marched forward in years, we still feel the essence of that closeness in this present time.

Valorie has rooted for me and supported me in a myriad of ways.  Although they may have been unspoken, I have felt them.Sister

There is something about those early years that just imbeds itself  into my  cells and my memories.  Feelings and emotions are hard to encapsulate into words.   To me, though, the feelings and emotions that came from being loved by my sister Valorie have just held on–as if in an infinite embrace.  I am supported, I am loved.

I am held in an infinite embrace.

So, even though we don’t often speak our respect and appreciation frequently and freely, it will always be there in the depth of my being.  The space it holds feels so dear to me.  There is no questioning that space–no doubt about her love for me– it just remains and it just IS.TarAnd Valorie

To the people who know my sister Valorie, you will all agree, she is so much to so many people.

She is a friend and confidant to everyone she knows–they can all count on her ear to be there for the listening. 

Valorie is a loving mother,  a loving wife, a loving daughter and a loving daughter-in-law.  She is constantly giving of herself to everyone around her.  Her job is so perfect for her–she gets to help welcome newborn babies into the world since she is a labor and delivery nurse–that is the most powerful place on the planet–in the presence of those miracles– and she gets to be there all the time!

It is clear to me, she deserves to be in that miraculous place because she is such a gift to everyone she knows.  GlowingValorie

Out of all the people I’ve known throughout my lifetime, Valorie is the most open-minded and open-hearted person.    She can hear a story, feel the emotions and be the first to want to engage with someone who may have been emotionally detached for a lifetime.

She is just plain fair and sensible and loving and always expecting the best out of people.

Gosh, I hope she really gets who she is for everyone in her life–the words I use certainly cannot give her the praise she deserves.

Even though she knows in the depth of her being  how I feel about her, I wanted her to hear it again–at least once in sentiment and words.  Her spirit fills me up –all the way  up–all the time that I’m in her presence!  My love for Valorie lives in infinity!ValorieFritzyTara

Money For Nothing

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Growing up I never had any anticipation of receiving an inheritance.

There was barely enough to get by week to week let alone receive anything more–my mom worked 2 jobs and my father was not present.  My father had another family and if there was any sort of inheritance, I’m sure they would be receiving it so I just never thought I would get an inheritance.

Well, I was so mistaken because I just received the greatest inheritance of my life!

No, it didn’t come in the form of money and things, it came in the form of  the most extraordinary human being I’ve ever met–I inherited my brother from my father’s second marriage– a most awesome man!GregoryLightsUp

If you met this man, you would just be so inspired to be greater than you are now.  He is such a living inspiration of how a fully actualized human being lives life.

He is creative, sensitive, artistic, intuitive, empathic, strong, sweet, disciplined, free, calm, patient, understanding, engaging, lovable …I could go on!

He is just pure love.  There are some who say the words “love and light” all the time and they are just words–Gregory IS love and light all the time!

I swear, this man is such a gift–not just to me but to everyone who knows him.    He is the sweetest, most tender man I’ve ever met.  He is fearless, eager, and calm–all at the same time.  He takes on things and walks through the fear of not knowing how to do them and just does them.

Not only is he a successful Chiropractor, he is an accomplished guitar player and singer in his band, “Auspicious Package”, he is a talented tattoo artist, and he is a Bringer of Light through the energy work he performs on  clients in his Castro Valley “BodyMind Connection” office in the Oakland area.

We have lived our lives separately yet now it seems as though we have been traveling down parallel paths looking at each other the whole time–getting clues from each other as to what we’ll do next.

After finding me through Facebook, he read some of my blog entries and saw someone who thinks the way he does. We talked on the phone and realized that our lives, even though they were separated by 3,000 miles and no contact, were so similar in so many ways that it is just plain hard to ignore!  It’s almost as if there is this phenomenon of quantum entanglement in action–as if we are soul twins of some sort–twin stars!

 We discover more than the time before–that process of discovering is exhilarating to say the least.

No amount of money or  material anything can compare to the joy and beauty he brings to my life.

When you are  in the midst of extraordinary, there is nothing bigger or better or more fulfilling than just BEING in that presence.

Yes, I am wealthy and abundant beyond belief from that inheritance.  My world has opened up in ways I can’t even see from here.

Not only did I inherit him, I inherited his wife and his friends and his world!  His wife, Patty, is as equally awesome in so many ways.

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She’s confident and secure and always looking to expand and grow and become more.  She is warm and generous and considerate.  I can’t wait to get to know her even more–she is easy to be with!  

I always say, “it takes one to know one”–it’s no wonder they’re a couple, they are the perfect match to each other.  

She encourages growth for everyone around her–it’s as if she sees the light in others and draws it out–that’s what she’s done with Gregory.  He is one amazing human being and she has been part of his growth for the last 27 years.

Yes indeed, if I were given the choice between a huge sum of money and having this relationship, without a doubt I would choose these beautiful beings–an inheritance of the greatest value!

As much as I’ve tried to describe it, it is truly ineffable–too great or extreme to be expressed or described in words!

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I have a real live person, an amazing person who I have some cosmic connection to.  My entire family will be able to experience his light and love!

 The love  I feel doesn’t seem to fit into a category. It’s a love that goes beyond  labels–it  is more vast than any love I’ve known.

You may be thinking, what has this woman been smoking?  I know I’m scaring you a bit–that’s okay.

Just hear me out fully–this has been one of the most awe-inspiring experiences of my life.  Yes, I am wealthy and abundant beyond belief from that inheritance. Here is what I am trying to express…

I believe by staying joyful, finding happiness in the simple things, appreciating your surroundings,  your life will become more and brighter than it has been.  Something amazing can’t help  but show up when you spend most of your time in the bliss and wonder of life.  I’d been hanging out there quite a bit and it paid off big time!  It will look different for everyone–start looking for what soothes you and brings you joy and something awesome will arrive–just for you!

Namaste’–I honor the place in you where the entire Universe dwells, the place where there is truth, love, peace, health, and abundance.  When you are in that place in you and I am in that place in me, we are one!

Choose Pronoia!

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I was flying down a singletrack trail on my mountain bike yesterday–the trail closed in and became a little brushy. There were curves and overgrown bushes so it was hard to look far enough ahead to see what was coming up. It felt like I was a little blind, in the fog and not knowing what was next.  Just because you’ve gotten really good at something, don’t think the unexpected isn’t around the next corner.IMG_0508

Nothing is certain and just because you’ve seen the same things over and over doesn’t mean you’ll keep seeing them.

Life can be that way sometimes. The certainty of what lies ahead is not certain at all! Anything can happen…the trail could end, a wild animal could approach, a dangerous drop off in the trail could stop you in your tire tracks or you could even come face to face with the love of your life!the shadow tara

The same is true in our everyday lives. You just never know what will come into your life. There could be something amazing just around the corner, just beyond the hidden bend in the road. Keep on riding with the mastery and confidence you’ve developed and you will be able to deal with it when it reveals itself.

Stay calm and confident and don’t get fearful and worried. Life can work out for you if you decide it will.

That’s about as simple as it is–however you decide to anticipate and expect is the way it will most likely work out for you.

As it says in the “Desiderata”, “Go confidently amid the noise and haste and remember what peace there may be in silence”. Be still and know that all is well and you are supremely guided and protected…be the opposite of paranoid–be Pronoid.

Pronoid–what a concept!  Instead of being paranoid and expecting the worst, be Pronoid–expect the  BEST!

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