Life Doesn’t Have To Look A Certain Way!


This is about as close as I’ll ever get to motherhood.  I knew from a young age, deep within my soul, I should never have kids.  Not sure why, it was just a VERY STRONG KNOWING.  It’s the first thing I’ve known FOR SURE, an intuitive knowing that I did not question. Every mom I’veContinue reading “Life Doesn’t Have To Look A Certain Way!”

Love Hurts


I remember my first date EVER–the song playing on the radio was “Love Hurts” by Nazareth (https://youtu.be/6pHNkOQCIzkLove Hurts) Nick picked me up in his classic Oldsmobile, can’t remember the year but it was old.  When he backed out of the driveway,  his car wouldn’t go into forward drive! It was quite a scene. So, weContinue reading “Love Hurts”

Their View Mirror


I have noticed something that I just keep getting clearer and clearer about it.  Every time I get down or go into a depression, it is almost always because I am viewing my life from someone else’s view of me. To say it another way, I love my little life.  I live in a funkyContinue reading “Their View Mirror”

Safe and Secure? Not So Sure


Security is an illusion.  “Life is either a daring adventure or nothing. Security does not exist in nature, nor do the children of men as a whole experience it. Avoiding danger is no safer in the long run than exposure.”  Helen Keller These are the words that ring in my mind when I think thingsContinue reading “Safe and Secure? Not So Sure”

Presence Is Power!


Did you know– Gratitude is THEE most powerful spiritual practice to cultivate.  I spend my days looking for beauty and I always find it!  I am grateful I can see beauty everywhere I look. Recently I had lunch with a friend and her sister.  I really wanted to get to know her sister better sinceContinue reading “Presence Is Power!”

Time Passages!


It’s a thrill to know that someone from over 30 years ago was thinking of me today, remembering me, speaking about me fondly.  I got a message from one of my Facebook friends.  She is the daughter of my very first boss! Tino, my boss who I haven’t been in touch with in almost 30Continue reading “Time Passages!”

Love IS– My Sister Valorie!


It really does seem true–the people we’ve known and loved the longest seem to be taken for granted the most! Well, let me tell you about my sister Valorie! Our bond started early, she spoke for me. I’m not sure when I did start talking but my mom had to have a real serious talkContinue reading “Love IS– My Sister Valorie!”

Money For Nothing


Growing up I never had any anticipation of receiving an inheritance. There was barely enough to get by week to week let alone receive anything more–my mom worked 2 jobs and my father was not present.  My father had another family and if there was any sort of inheritance, I’m sure they would be receivingContinue reading “Money For Nothing”

Your Body–Friend or Foe?


I massaged a woman yesterday who was so rushed and stressed and oh so attached to her pain!  She ran in complaining about the parking situation and she did not seem ready to lay down on a massage table and receive. She is a former therapist at the clinic I work in so I knewContinue reading “Your Body–Friend or Foe?”

Choose Pronoia!


I was flying down a singletrack trail on my mountain bike yesterday–the trail closed in and became a little brushy. There were curves and overgrown bushes so it was hard to look far enough ahead to see what was coming up. It felt like I was a little blind, in the fog and not knowingContinue reading “Choose Pronoia!”

Get A Glimpse– No Ego In Sight!


I am a woman and  sometimes when I look in the mirror I notice a little too much of what’s wrong–all the flaws.  Sometimes I see too much fat, too many flaws in my skin, blah blah blah!  Sad, but true.   Most of the time, though,  I am just in a state of BEINGContinue reading “Get A Glimpse– No Ego In Sight!”

18 And I Like It!


A strange phenomenon has been happening for me–slowly, the more I am focusing on me with no male distractions, the more I seem to be reverting to my 18th year. This feeling comes in glimpses and memories pop in sporadically… The more time I spend ON MY OWN, the more I take on the meContinue reading “18 And I Like It!”

With Or Without You


I’ve been on my own for 4 years now. In those 4 years, I’ve gone from having 2 or 3 friends to having many. Some of them are there for me regularly, some of them are there for me only sometimes, but there are many to choose from. It took a while to build upContinue reading “With Or Without You”

Childless By Choice


I am a woman and I am childless by choice. No, this is not something I need to discuss and wonder about, it’s a decision I made many years ago. Many years ago, though, everyone seemed to want to challenge that decision.  Talk about pressure, there was extreme pressure every turn I took. If weContinue reading “Childless By Choice”

California Dreams Come True


I remember my second visit to California, I was 18 years old and loving this place!  Near the end of my trip, I read some graffiti on a freeway overpass, “Tourists GO HOME”!  I remember feeling really bad when I read it, almost like I had been personally attacked. I couldn’t understand how someone wouldContinue reading “California Dreams Come True”

Degrees of Forgiveness?


Recently, I’ve had the “forgiveness” conversation with people. I’ve heard a common theme that troubles me. People seem to have varying degrees of forgiveness.  It seems that some things are acceptable to forgive yet others are not so acceptable.  Gosh, that doesn’t sound like forgiveness to me. I was telling someone that I was goingContinue reading “Degrees of Forgiveness?”

Outstanding


As I am becoming more and more appreciative and grateful for everything in my day to day living, I am noticing more and more people in my midst who are extremely appreciative and considerate.  It is so fun to watch the unfolding as it occurs. It’s good news to me, since I am a firmContinue reading “Outstanding”

Synchronicity Swirling Around Me


The day started like any other day at The Malibu Gym. Greg, one of the trainers,  was wearing a “Drill” shirt.  Arnold made a comment that his shirt should say “sargeant” after the Drill logo.  Greg said, “well, I’ll see what Craig can do about that”. Craig is the owner of Drill.  I haven’t seenContinue reading “Synchronicity Swirling Around Me”

Santa Monica Serendipity


Santa Monica was once the Mecca of Bodybuilding–or wait, maybe it was Venice.  These days, Santa Monica is the Mecca of Yoga Studios. There are literally 6 studios within 5 blocks of each other. As I wrote in a previous post, I was once a yoga whore. Yoga whore,  meaning I never seemed to stayContinue reading “Santa Monica Serendipity”

Diary of A Massage Therapist


I feel fortunate to have learned the skill of giving massage.  I am a nurturing,  compassionate person so being a massage therapist is in sync with those natural qualities. I am so very impressed with people who trust enough. When you think about it, a perfect stranger is entrusting their body to me, another perfectContinue reading “Diary of A Massage Therapist”

Love Is Everything They Said It Would Be


I drove up alongside my former husband this morning. It was Mother’s Day 2010 and we were both on our way to see our morning clients in Malibu.  We were married for 20 years but have been separated for almost 2 years.  It was kind of cool, in a strange sort of way, to seeContinue reading “Love Is Everything They Said It Would Be”

Are You A Rock?


Many people seem to be opting out of the game of dating. It seems the pain and heartache they’ve experienced in the past has stopped them from looking for more love. They hear about all the dramas associated with dating and proclaim, “I am just not interested in going through all of that anymore, I’llContinue reading “Are You A Rock?”